poem: “i am sorry”

I’m sorry
for doing you wrong. 

I’m sorry 
for all that went sour. 

I’m sorry
for putting you out of your comfort zone. 

I’m sorry
for all that I did. 

I’m sorry
for being a bitch. 

I’m sorry
for always doing wrong. 

What did I do wrong? 
I always ask, 
I always wonder, 
but I never know. 

I’m sorry 
for all this shit. 

I’m sorry 
for trying to be,
more than I thought I could be. 

I’m sorry that I never know. 
I’m sorry that I’m a mess. 
I’m sorry that I couldn’t be my best. 

I’m sorry 
for inviting you. 

I thought that we could have some fun. 
But that’s not how it worked out. 

I’m ranting now. 
I’m freaking out now.
I’m crying now.

And once again, 
here I am, 
left to doubt myself, 
once again. 

-Minah H. (yours truly) 
i’m sorry for who I am