poem: “dear love of my life”

Dear love of my life, 
you are the light in my eyes 
the stars of my galaxy.

My love revolves around you
it is for you
and only you.

The love of my life
is the boy laying in my bed, 
looking at memes on his phone. 

The love of my life 
is the one who takes me out to dinner,
doesn’t mind when I sit beside him.

The love of my life 
is the individual whom my universe revolves around
even though when others say
it really, really shouldn’t.

Dear love of my life,
i’m so in love with you, 
from the scent of your cologne
to the cute voices you can make.

Dear love of my life, 
please never change
you are perfect in all ways 
and my love, you are 
my sun, 
my moon, 
my stars, 
my universe,
and more.

-Minah H. (yours truly)
yes, i am a cheesy, lovesick teenager & please don’t freak out, i’m mostly exaggerating as exaggeration is very, very fun

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poem: “rushing through”

Rushing, 
writing, 
back and forth,
again and again. 

Rushing, 
reading,
up and down, 
around and around. 

There’s always something new
that I’m scurrying through. 
A new hobby here and there,
it can be quite a lot to bear. 

So much on my mind,
I keep attempting to find 
something bright and bold,
but I’m beginning to fold,
under the pressure and weight. 
Is this my fate? 

I’m rushing, 
writing, 
back and forth,
again and again. 

I’m rushing, 
reading, 
up and down, 
around and around. 

I want to experience a ton,
and yes, it’s quite fun. 
I’ll continue to do
and continue to bloom. 

-Minah H. (yours truly)
rushing and writing, through and through

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poem: “mother, i’m in love”

Mother,
I’m in love. 

And I don’t know what to do,
don’t know what to say. 

But I know, 
I know,
I want to spend
the rest of my life, 
with my love. 

Mother,
I’m in love. 

I’m sorry for the past, 
I’m sorry for what cards I’ve been dealt. 

But I can see my fairytale ending, 
my happy ending. 

It’s so close!
It’s so near! 

Mother, 
I’m in love. 

I will not be a repeat of your marriage,
we will be better, 
that sure is a fact. 

I know I’m a little crazy, 
but I’m crazy for him. 

So please don’t try to stop me. 

I let the words flow out of me. 

I don’t know where all this inspiration comes from! 

Oh. 
Wait. 
No. 
Yes. 
Maybe?
…
Yes, I know. 

I’m inspired by him, 
I keep moving forward, 
all because of him,
and I know I’m in love. 

Mother, 
I’m in love. 

I’ve been in countless relationships. 
And yes, I use that as a joke. 
At parties, I’ll playfully laugh 
and count on both my hands and all my toes. 

But, Mother, 
I’m in love. 

Why can’t you see? 
He’s meant for me.
I’m meant for him. 

And I don’t know where this will lead me. 
But I don’t care. 
Let me be,
a crazy, lovesick teenager,
oh, it’s meant to be.

He could lead me anywhere, 
and I would follow. 

We’re two of a kind, 
we’re both too nice, 
too loyal, 
too generous, 
maybe a little too in love. 

But, Mother, 
I’m in love. 

And I will follow him to the ends of the earth. 

He is my sun, 
my moon, 
my stars, 
and my universe. 

Mother, 
I’m in love. 

And I’ll be leaving soon, 
for college, oh dear. 

But he’ll be by my side, 
he’s always lovingly by my side. 

I’m a little crazy, 
but all for him, 
yes, it’s true. 

Mother, 
I’m in love. 

I’m in love with him, 
and I’ll always hold him dear, 
in my heart, 
my mind, 
my body, 
and my soul. 

Mother, yes, 
I’m in love. 

-Minah H. (yours truly) 
dedicated to my love, you know who you are

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nanowrimo 2019 starts tomorrow

Greetings & salutations! It is I, Minah, also known as Libraime! As you can tell from the title, tomorrow is the start of NaNoWriMo 2019! Yay!!! If you’re wondering what NaNoWriMo is, let me explain!

NaNoWriMo stands for National November Writing Month! For those who participate in NaNoWriMo, the goal is to write an entire novel in the timespan of the single month of November! You set a word goal (mine is 50K words) and proceed to start writing! It’s an amazing organization!

If you would like to join NaNoWriMo, you can join either the young writers’ version (link to young writers’ NaNoWriMo) or the adult writers’ version (link to adult writers’ NaNoWriMo)! If you enjoy writing, I highly suggest attempting to do NaNoWriMo! Even if you don’t succeed, it’s a ton of fun and an extremely eye-opening experience!

This will be my second year of doing NaNoWriMo! I did it last year, and I completed my goal (25K words)! But I’ll be honest with you, the main reason why I succeeded in my goal is because I just typed up the word “banana” over and over again, admittedly… Yeah, that was fun, lol!

Anyway, tomorrow is the start of NaNoWriMo, and I really hope some of you try it out! I have a really cool idea for my novel, and I’ll give you a little insight into my novel. It’s going to be a one-sided LGBTQ+ love story. There’s two main characters: Essie (who falls in love with one of her best friends, a girl named Sadie) and Aiyden (Essie and Sadie’s other best friend who’s struggling with family issues and is going in a downward spiral). That’s all I’m going to tell you, for now!

Anyway, I’m going to end this blog post here! I sincerely wish you all a spectacular day! This is Libraime, logging off!

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happy halloween

Greetings and salutations! ‘Tis I, Minah AKA Libraime! And guess what~? It’s Halloween!! I wanted to wish you all a splendid Halloween! I’m planning on dressing up as a witch and walking around my neighborhood with my friends (maybe even go to a party)! It’s going to be hella fun! I’ll post some pictures on my Instagram (IG: @libraime), so please go check that out! I might even post some photos here on my blog tomorrow or the next few days, so keep an eye out for that! Also, got any Halloween plans? Please comment down below and tell me! Maybe you’ll find a friend in the comments! Anyway, I’m going to end this blog post here! I love you all, and I wish all of thee a very spoopy Hallow’s Eve~!

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poem: “i am sorry”

I’m sorry
for doing you wrong. 

I’m sorry 
for all that went sour. 

I’m sorry
for putting you out of your comfort zone. 

I’m sorry
for all that I did. 

I’m sorry
for being a bitch. 

I’m sorry
for always doing wrong. 

What did I do wrong? 
I always ask, 
I always wonder, 
but I never know. 

I’m sorry 
for all this shit. 

I’m sorry 
for trying to be,
more than I thought I could be. 

I’m sorry that I never know. 
I’m sorry that I’m a mess. 
I’m sorry that I couldn’t be my best. 

I’m sorry 
for inviting you. 

I thought that we could have some fun. 
But that’s not how it worked out. 

I’m ranting now. 
I’m freaking out now.
I’m crying now.

And once again, 
here I am, 
left to doubt myself, 
once again. 

-Minah H. (yours truly) 
i’m sorry for who I am

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poem: “summer and me”

Summer breeze, 
I start to freeze, 
I only displease,
resulting in this summer tease.

Summer cloud, 
it starts to get loud, 
I can’t stand the crowd, 
my parents, oh they’re not proud. 

Summer view, 
I wish I knew, 
I’m not brand new, 
it’s all untrue. 

Summer sun, 
after all I’ve done, 
it’s only just begun, 
and it certainly hasn’t been fun. 

-Minah H. (yours truly)
i don’t like the summertime

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short story: “canine eyes”

I am all-powerful. All humans do my bidding. For I am Frenchie, Queen and Dictator of the Humans. 

I lay proudly upon my pillowy perch, seated upon the highest point of the couch cushion. All that exists, belongs to I. I enjoy the quiet and the solitude… Before the door slams open and the peace is broken. A flock of pre-teen girls swarm into the room. Ah, the youngest human must have invited her underlings over once again. I can tell that they’re her underlings because of how they do everything she asks of them without question (excluding the occasional defiant whine). I hear the older humans refer to her as “Ava,” a weird and unusual name. I cannot understand why the humans decide to call each other such names. Where can you go wrong with simple yet exquisite names like “Spot” and “Pie?” 

Upon the sight of me, the girls swarm around me. “Aw, he’s so cute~!” The multiple, high-pitched and squeaky voices annoy me tremendously. I roll my tiny, black, beady eyes. What an idiotic mistake. I am female, not a he. And I am most definitely, not cute. 

I growl at them, ordering them to leave me alone. At first, they’re hesitant to leave beautiful me alone, but after a few snaps of my jaw, they leave. Leaving me be to my preferred solitude. 

Several hours later, the older female human arrives home. She seems to know of my plots to murder her and her family, and she quite enjoys taunting me with delicious food from the human realm. Upon seeing me, she breaks out into a smile. She must’ve finally bowed down to my control. Either that, or she had a good day. She skipped her way into the food room, and I hear her open the cold box. I hear the crinkle of plastic, and my ears perk up at the sound. Could it be…? Cheese…? 

“Frenchie~! Would you like some… Cheeeeeeeeeese~?” 

Foolish, pathetic human. I don’t need nor want your praise! … But yes, I would like some cheese. 

I hop off my pillowy perch and stretch, before heading into the kitchen. The tall, lanky human awes and giggles before me, taking out a slice of that golden, heavenly delicacy: cheese. I growl at them, ordering them to place it down before me. But they simply giggle and fawn over me, before finally placing the delectable square on the floor. 

As I gobble down my meal, the pathetic human attempts to pet my perfect, curly, black fur. But I growl and snap viciously at their outstretched fingertips. “Begone!” I growl, ordering them to leave me be. Instead of cowering in fear like the little ones do, she giggles once more. “Aw, you’re such a grumpy butt~!” She utters cheerfully, before heading off to do something. Likely my bidding. 

A couple of hours later, the oldest male human arrives, opening the door and calling for his children. I bark at him, he’s the most annoying of them all. Once he lays his eyes upon me, he laughs and starts to imitate me! The nerve! In retaliation, I growl and bark at him more. But it doesn’t seem to faze him, as he continues to laugh and mimic me. This insufferable human! 

Later on, the eldest female human arrives home. I have a soft spot for this human. She is the sweetest of them all, and the most beautiful. I love her to death. She is my favorite slave. Upon entering the lazy room, she completely ignores her children and heads straight towards me, fawning over me with a passion as I wag my tail in approval. Yes, yes, I will spare this human, while I kill the rest! 

Ah, the life of a canine is a wondrous thing… Too bad the humans don’t seem to realize our power over them. 

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what are anxiety attacks?

Greetings & salutations! It’s Minah, AKA Libraime! We’re back with another blog post about anxiety (link to first post)! In the previous post, we talked what anxiety is, general anxiety versus anxiety disorders, and symptoms of anxiety! Now, in this post, we’re going to be discussing anxiety attacks! I really hope that this brings some insight to those struggling with anxiety!

What are anxiety attacks? Anxiety attacks are a feeling of overwhelming, controlling apprehension, fear, worry, distress, or stress. For a lot of people, these anxiety attacks can build up slowly but surely, and will/may worsen when a stressful event occurs.

Anxiety attacks vary greatly from individual to individual, when it comes to symptoms, triggers, resulting behaviors, and et cetera. According to healthline.com, it’s because the many symptoms of anxiety don’t happen to everyone, and in addition, they can change over time.

Common symptoms of anxiety may include:

  • Feeling faint or dizziness
  • Shortness of breath
  • Dry mouth
  • Sweating
  • Chills or hot flashes
  • Apprehension and/or worry
  • Restlessness
  • Distress
  • Fear
  • Numbness and/or tingling

Some people confuse anxiety attacks with panic attacks, but know that they’re different. Prior to researching, even I didn’t know that there were differences. Thus, we’ll be exploring some of those differences in a later post. However, for now, I’ll provide you with some simple differences.

According to medicalnewstoday.com, panic attacks are typically more intense than anxiety attacks. In addition, panic attacks are generally more of a sudden, out-of-the-blue occurrence, while anxiety attacks usually have a trigger.

However, this does not mean that panic attacks don’t have a trigger. Sometimes they do have a trigger, sometimes they’re out-of-the-blue, sometimes they can even be a build-up of anxiety. For example, someone with anxiety has been put through uncomfortable situations again and again, repeatedly. All that stress/distress and anxiety builds up, until they may have a panic attack.

We’re going to end this blog post here, but I really hope that this post helped! If you have anything to add to this post, please comment it down below and I will add it in! I am not an expert nor a professional; I am simply an individual who suffers from an anxiety disorder and wishes to help & support others.

In a later post, we will be exploring ways to calm down during an anxiety attack/panic attack, so keep an eye out for that! I sincerely hope that you all have a fantastic day! This is Libraime, logging off!

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poem: “ink pen stains”

Ink pen stains,
smudging the page. 

Ink pen stains,
staining the page. 

Ink pen stains,
I’ve lost the meaning. 

Ink pen stains, 
I start to worry. 

Ink pen stains, 
it’s getting blurry. 

Ink pen stains, 
it’s quite the flurry. 

Ink pen stains, 
I put down my pen,
while I worry, 
again and again. 

-Minah H. (yours truly) 
ink pen stains are a blemish on a sheet of purity. 

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book review: “everything everything” by nicola yoon

Everything Everything is a beautifully-written young adult/romance novel written by author Nicola Yoon. When I say I have fallen in love with this novel, I mean it. This was a spectacular novel, with splendid characters, a wonderful plot, interesting situations, and a gorgeous idea. This is one of my favorite novels of all time, and I 100% mean that.

Yoon weaves the tragically beautiful story of Madeline “Maddy” Whittier, a “fatally ill” teenage girl who falls in love with her new & mysterious neighbor, Oliver “Olly” Bright. Maddy has an extremely rare disease known as Severe Combined Immunodeficiency, which basically means that she is allergic to the world. She hasn’t left her house in 15 years, the only people she regularly sees is her mother and her nurse, Carla.

But out of the blue, a new family moves in next door to her house: the Bright family. And the one who catches Maddy’s eye is Oliver “Olly” Bright: tall, lean, and wearing all black. And from the moment their eyes meet, their fates are intertwined together.

One of my favorite parts of this book is the character development. In case you didn’t know, I FREAKING LOVE CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT!! The characters in this story evolve and unravel as the story follows their lives, revealing their true selves and aided them in developing. Secrets are uncovered and realities are changed. I have read this book several times, and each time, I fall more and more in love with the characters and their developments.

Usually, I try to say one thing that I would change in the book that I am reviewing, but I can’t find an actual flaw in this story. It. Is. PERFECT. Please, try to prove me wrong. PLEASE, because I can’t find a single flaw in this novel. Of course, I might be a little biased, as I’m in love with this story, but that doesn’t matter, right? (lol)

Overall, this book is gorgeous, spectacular, fantastic, splendid, lovely, and more. I am in love with it so, so, so much. From a scale of 0 to 5 (0 being the worst and 5 being the best), I would, without a doubt, rate this novel a 5 out of 5. IT IS THAT GOOD! I highly suggest giving it a try! And if you do, please tell me what you think!

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what is anxiety?

Greetings & salutations! It’s yours truly, Minah AKA Libraime! So, if you can tell from the title of this blog post, for today, I’ve decided to write a post on anxiety! I have anxiety too, and it can very hard to deal with. It’s a real struggle but it’s very important to learn how to deal with it. Starting in this post, we’re going to learn about anxiety.

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You might be wondering: what is anxiety? Anxiety is your body’s natural response to stress, according to healthline.com. “It’s a feeling of fear or apprehension about what’s to come.” Anything can make you anxious. From something as huge as an important job interview to something as small as leaving the house, anything can trigger an anxiety attack. Some people have anxiety that is so severe, it can be considered an anxiety disorder.

It’s perfectly normal to feel anxious/scared about anything: taking a test, asking out your crush, going to school, anything and everything. Anxiety is unpleasant, but everyone experiences it. Some less than others, and others more than most. Ordinary anxiety comes and goes, but it won’t affect your everyday life.

However, an anxiety disorder means that the feeling of fear and/or panic can be with you all the time. It can be very intense, crippling almost. This anxiety may restrict you from doing the simplest of things, such as talking to your boss or even walking across the street. I, along with a wide majority of my friends, have an anxiety disorder. And that’s okay. You’re not alone in this struggle, and there will always be people around you willing to help and support you (we will be delving into how to support someone with anxiety in a later post).

Anxiety disorders are the most common form of emotional disorders and can affect anyone at any age, according to healthline.com.

If you’re wondering if you have anxiety, there may be symptoms. Symptoms of general anxiety may include: rapid breathing, increased heart rate, restlessness, troubles falling asleep, and/or difficulty concentrating. The anxiety symptoms you may have might be completely different from someone else’s anxiety symptoms. If you think you may have anxiety, ask a trusted adult and/or professional. It may be your best friend, your counselor, your parent/guardian, your doctor, whoever you can trust and can help you.

In a later post, I will be detailing what an anxiety attack is (link to anxiety attack post), and how to deal with it.

I sincerely hope that this post helps bring some insight into your life. Know that there are countless people you can talk to and rely on. I will be making more posts about anxiety later on, so keep an eye out! I’m ending this post here, but I wish you all a spectacular day!

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poem: “spoiled gals”

They’re over the top,
they never stop.

Gossiping left and right,
they don’t seem too bright.

Complaining about their life,
bringing up new strife.

Their every want is gifted,
their every need is lifted.

Attempting to block them out,
but they continue to shout,
how they deserve more and more,
to be honest, it’s getting quite sore.

High school is hell,
yet they’re catered to with a ring of a bell.

They claim that their life is tough,
but in reality, there are ones more rough.

I wish that they would hush,
and stop with their neverending rush.

They’ll never listen to my insight,
carelessly doing what they think is right.

My eyes roll,
they leave such a toll,
on my mind and sanity,
these girls overflowing with vanity.

Life is not easy-peasy,
they’re gonna grow up to be sleazy.

I’m tired of this shit,
they don’t listen one bit.

Karma is a bitch,
and she sure won’t miss,
these basic white bitches,
will one day hope that she misses.

-Minah H. (yours truly)
admittedly inspired by my little sister (I love you, Ava).

happy asexual awareness week

Greetings & salutations! As you can tell from the title, this post is celebrating Asexual Awareness Week! I’m kind of late to the party, so I apologize for that! But I wanted to make a post at least at some point!

If you’re wondering what asexuality is, it’s a sexual orientation (or it can be considered as a lack of sexual orientation) where you experience little to no sexual attraction to others. This does NOT mean that they’re not into relationships; everyone is different in their experiences/views.

There are many different forms of attraction (link to website), such as: romantic (desiring a romantic relationship), aesthetic (attracted to someone based on their appearance), sensual/physical (desiring physical touch, like cuddling or holding hands), platonic (wanting to be friends), emotional (desiring an emotional connection), and more. Every asexual is different, and it’s possible for them to experience all of these forms of attraction.

A common misconception of asexuality is that someone who is asexual does not enjoy sex. This is false, it just means that they don’t feel sexual attraction (as in they’re not attracted to someone sexually).

There is much more to asexuality that I don’t understand, and it’s always a spectacular experience learning more about the LGBTQ+ world! Personally, I am bisexual, which means I am attracted to both males and females!

I highly encourage you to learn more about asexuality! Knowledge is power and is very enriching to life!

I’m going to end this blog post here, but a HUGE shout-out to all my asexual readers out there! You’re beautiful, strong, and amazing! Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise! Have a fantastic day!

senior year and the future

Greetings and salutations! ‘Tis I, Minah! Once again, like my previous status post, I’m in my College Composition class. I think it’s becoming a regular thing to blog while I’m in my College Comp class… I finish my work quickly and then I (usually) have nothing to do, so I decide to blog, lol!

In case you didn’t realize, I’m a senior in high school! It’s a lot of fun and very exciting because it’s my last year of school before I go off to college. But on the other hand, it’s a lot of hard work. I have to focus on my classes (I chose a full schedule to keep myself busy), keep my GPA up (I’m proud to say it’s currently a 3.5), keep up with work and Girl Scouts and Youth Group and all the other organizations that I’m a part of, study, and prepare myself for college! I’ve been handling it alright so far, but it can be overwhelming at times.

For most of my life, my parents, extended family, and the influential adults around me have pushed me to plan for the future and to know what I want to do in life, so I have the next few years planned out.

I want to go to college (preferably to VCU or Roanoke College) and dual-major. I want to major in Business Administration/Management and either Creative Writing or Culinary Arts (or both, if I’m lucky). Once I graduate from college, I’ll go into a business career, hopefully working my way up and saving money along the way. And one day, I plan to start my own business: a cafe/bakery! It’s always been my dream to start my own business, and sell the food I love to make! Thus, that is my goal that I’m working so eagerly towards!

I have a lot of dreams and things that I want to accomplish, so I’m working hard towards my goals! I believe that having a surplus of aspirations is a good thing, because it motivates you to keep doing your best and keep trying!

It’s very interesting to think about your plan for life. It can be hard, and complicated, and confusing, and even scary! For most people, it can be quite a daunting task. Nevertheless, I believe everyone should at least take some thought to their future. To think about what they want to do in life. To contemplate their options. To dream about what they want to achieve. It can open up a whole new perspective for you.

I encourage you to take some time today to think about your future, your dreams, your goals, your aspirations, your life. It can be as long as two hours or as short as a minute, but take some time to contemplate it. It may gift you a whole new mindset.

Well, I think that might be enough “deepness” for this post, haha! I’m going to end this blog post here! I hope you all have a spectacular day, and don’t forget that only you can make your day great! Bye!

book review: “geekerella” by ashley poston

Geekerella is a quirky and cute novel in the young adult romance genre, written by part-time author and full-time geek Ashley Poston. The novel follows the perspectives of the two main characters: Elle Wittimer (geeky, artistic, and in love with the book’s own version of the Star Wars fandom) and Darien Freeman (teen actor, heartthrob, and secret geek). The two characters fall in love over anonymous text messages, like your typical teenage romance novel. But the main lure to this book is that it’s supposed to be a version of “Cinderella,” but with a modern, fandom-fueled twist to it. It’s a very cute idea and it works wonderfully in the genre. 

My favorite aspect of this book would likely be the geeky and loveable personality of main character Elle Wittimer. She is a wonderful character and very easy to relate to if you’re a geek/nerd/dork like me. You can feel her problems and with the words Poston uses, you can even imagine yourself in her shoes (or should I say glass slippers)! 

If I could change a few things in this novel, for one, I would provide the readers with more background on Darien Freeman’s past before he became a famous actor. In addition, two words: character development! It was practically nonexistent in this novel, which is a shame because I ADORE character development! Watching characters evolve and grow is my favorite part in any form of media, but I unfortunately barely got any of that from this novel. There was a tiny bit of character development for Darien Freeman, but not enough (in my opinion). 

Overall, on a scale of zero to five (zero being the worst and five being the best), I would rate this story a 3 out of 5. It’s a cute story (kind of cliche, but nothing you can do about that). I wish there was more character development and more elaboration on the personalities/backgrounds of certain characters; but overall, I thought this was a very entertaining read! 

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poem: “caged rage”

I can’t identify, 
only one reason why 
I am forced to turn a blind eye. 

I’m confined to my chain, 
I start to strain, 
my anger swirls like a hurricane. 

I can’t get free, 
she’s stinging like a bee, 
I’m withering away into a nobody. 

She wants to control, 
I’m as helpless as a tadpole, 
wanting to hide away in a hole. 

Despite all my rage, 
I am still just a rat in a cage. 
I want to disengage, 
but she keeps going on a rampage. 

Not a child anymore, 
but definitely not an adult, 
it’s getting quite sore. 

I’m sick of all this shit, 
she’s such a bitch. 
I can’t wait to escape, 
while she watches with a gape. 

-Minah H. 
despite all my rage, I’m still just a rat in a cage (inspired by “Bullet with Butterfly Wings” by The Smashing Pumpkins)